I do love my job, really. I love the fact that I have one, that I'm getting paid, that I have somewhere to go every day that makes me feel welcome. But 6:00 in the morning comes way too early, and 11-12 year olds are just SO loud and immature. I survived the first semester, though, so I know I will make it through until the end of May and continue making a difference in these kids' lives like I have always wanted to.
When I first took the job working in this school district, I was ecstatic. All through college, all I wanted to do was teach in a school that NEEDED me. Well, I found one that needs a lot, and although I know I am reaching so many kids, I can't help but wonder if I am in the right place. Are they REALLY learning from me? Am I effective? Do they see me as someone they are comfortable talking to? I hope the answer to those questions is a big YES, but time will tell. I am doing my best, and even though it is stressful and time consuming, I am thankful to be there and hope the kids are as well.
After posting our engagement pictures on Facebook yesterday, it seems like there is a clear favorite. So many people liked and commented on this photograph, and I agree. It is definitely one of my favorites from the entire set.
On that note, I am going to get my things together for work tomorrow. I know I'm going to be disoriented in the morning since my routine was disrupted for nearly three weeks, so I need to make sure everything is ready to walk out the door with tonight.